Just thoughts!!

Situations place you in a position that are different to get out of , no perception , planning or action could solve . You go in. Strong , but come out different . Everyone has a breaking point , depending on how long the situation lasts . After that even the strongest mind starts questioning themselves  You are strong ! are you? You are loved ! Are you?  You matter ! Do you? Someone is listening  Are they? Somebody cares  Do they?  Your existence matters  Does it? The stronger you are the harder you break .

  Yes I wish to tell you how I feel but can’t . The way you make me feel , the way I feel about you . It is me , maybe . The perception of self for me . The way it’s great or just a state of mind , or I don’t want to find out that I tell you and you were turn into an illusion . Just disappearing into the dark memories of my delusions . Would it hurt more then ?     Or if I never admit it . Your unsurety fuels my insecurities  

On my way back home , I was walking up the stairs wondering about a plan. On the way up with a mind full of thoughts , I saw these beautiful pair of eyes . Standing there playing dodge , tired but pretty    , but they were sad . One could tell , they were hiding some kind of pain . Makes one wonder , why those eyes are burdened . Who is the reason behind those . I wish we could speak and share , I could make the eyes glitter again , though she smiled , the silence is all we shared . 

Today , let’s keep it simple . A simple change in the assumption perspective in things . For all those who don't think before actions . When you do not think and say all men , women , kids , adults etc . It includes a specific group entirely consisting of different individuals with different personalities . how could all be the same ? how can one be so ignorant to just categorise many different personalities in one ? Every individual is different , with different talents and flaws . If you cannot think then breathe before saying things . take a pause, make sense of things before sharing . digitally or verbally . everyone is different . respect that and you word would be respected .

While walking through this lonely dark path , without the sight of the destination . Just lost in the absence , the beauty of the night . Cold making the body go numb , depriving you from the sensory response . All your left is the mind , the thought and perception . Betrayed by the numb reflexes . That’s life , just a dark road leading nowhere . The mess is on the way . It just happens . All you have to do is walk and you fall in it , just like that .

Yes , it was the truth to be told , but most don’t take it well . It’s not always what you share , it’s how you take it too  . It might be embarrassment , a lie , a feeling , a joke etc . It’s not always on how it’s delivered . Most of the time it also depends on who receives it and how it is received  . One cannot just keep on talking , even the unstable talk with the delusional of someone listening which others failed to see . 

On my way home I spoke to this stranger , she said  “I work so hard , towards the goal . The goal to grow . The goal to move beyond the past . The goal to be happy . Constantly fighting and falling down , picking myself up . Again and again . The universe keeps on revolting against the will of happiness . What went wrong !? The    strong grudge a single person to spoil continues success.” Though we never exchanged our names . Sharing a strangers pain has it’s own happiness .

  Standing on the crossroads , where the directions are lost , gravity doesn’t exist . The past seems unworthy , the future , blurry . The present , surprising . The plans look faulty , feeling feel shaky . The whole existence of the universe feels extinct . Revival seems impossible  . What more can one say , the unpredictable paradoxes of possibility feels like lies . Unprepared for the blow     , though it was delivered by a predicted possibility