Just thoughts!!

 Recently I have seen an increase in posts that are supposed to be sad in nature. I don't condemn them, nor I am against posting such posts. It is everyone's right, to post what they want and to express their opinions. As I have the right to express mine. It is said that sharing the pain helps it heal, but then what if one tries to heal a type of pain that doesn't exist. There are those who are genuinely hurt, depressed, sadden by things who want to find solutions and happiness, work towards the betterment of themselves. Then there are those, who just assume, pretend or portray. Insulting the genuine souls who search the light. I am not against posting or being fake. It is your life, your status, your post, your choice. My point is, reflect on the actual emotions you feel, rather than finding solutions to false perceptions. You might find the solution you seek. know your problem before jumping towards the wrong solution. One can never find peace with the wrong solution. If ...

 Yesterday, the mood struck once again. it was time to take a walk through the lanes. For once, letting them decide the destination, instead of being a medium. I took once again without any goals, with the sole intention of enjoying the moment. While walking I saw this bus, decided to get on it, after that a rail. As the journey continued, I looked out of the window. Bright blue sunny skies, white cotton clouds, beautiful buildings, cool breeze, it was a good day. Then I turned, saw the people travelling with me, 3 of them were standing. one lady sat next to me there were other two who were reading a book. a lady with her luggage. There were others who were off and on. But these people were travelling for a while along. When you look at them like that, they were normal, people travelling along. Nothing to notice here, but there was something wrong with that picture. Everyone was scared of everyone else. With mouths covered, the eyes speak. When one moved, others moved. seats were e...

There were some mistakes I did when I didn't have the time for things in life. It was difficult even to take a breather out of half a breath. These memories are not just some stories, these are the moments I've lived, felt, and questioned. lived through expectations, which were impossible at times. Those things that others did, I couldn't. Not for some idea or for some trade for future. I just never had the time. The time even to be a simple friend. Shut off from things, struggling in a struggle. Only I was aware of. Still listening to the ones who had far less my experience. Forcing me to grow, ahead then the time allotted for the tasks forgotten. Those demons, always haunt you no matter what. They are invisible, won't bother you, till the day they just pop out of nowhere in those most vulnerable moments possessing over your perception.

Less than half of the things, I write, I share with you here. Sometimes it too much for some to understand, and too much for many to perceive. People are built in different ways, I don't blame any. Only when there is a difference, there is a sense of pattern in the chaos. The puzzle makes sense. I come across different types of people every day. Sometimes it's a physical encounter, a call, text, posts, statuses, etc. Every move they make has a meaning and a way of sense in it, one can see the logic, chaos, ego, revenge, stupidity, etc. Then there is a goal too. To prove a point, create a mirage, affection, to seek approval, etc. One glance at the situation, and you understand the meaning if you are smart enough. Many times it is the opposite, that is meant. I am not obsessed with people's lives or their matters. I would not entertain or care in most cases until asked about it. But then observation is an observation, which I share. The behavioral pattern is what I find amusi...

Today I don't have anything specific to share or tell. Just a day to be neutral or blank. not trying to lean on any particular or favor anyone. Just to be sometimes is the best. just be to see, to observe, be kind to yourself. what you were and what you have become, shouldn't matter today. just breathe and be one with yourself even if it's for 5 mins. we forget that we are all living beings and not machines. we might work and think like them more and more recently, but achieving that task is really difficult. someone might achieve it, abandoning the humanity within. for now, breathe and wait for something better than today.