Just thoughts!!

For the past few days, I have been disappointed by a few people. Not in the way that 'oh yeah all are bad, I am fed up of everyone. Everyone is different and has to be treated so, respecting their individuality. But then there are times where a person has to be sad, otherwise, it is not considered normal if there is a single state of emotion dominating through the course of time. Disappointment where there are certain people you lose faith in. This is something that makes me question, is that out of habit ? or plain old stupidity? I wish I could just say out loud why the disappointment kicked in, but at the same time, I know there's this lack of maturity to understand the situation in a non-judgmental, unbiased way. maybe that's the disappointment, the lack of maturity, maybe it's something else. I know you have your problems, but then, do you just completely ignore the problems others face? do you believe in sharing pain or dumping pain?

  Why do you have to explain yourself? when you say things don’t affect you. Why do you talk about that person?  When you say you're over them Why does the person affect you?  When you feel you're better than them  Why do you have to explain your attitude? When you know it’s not the wrong way Why do you have to interpret your behavior? When you don’t care what others think Why do you try and act in a way? But your actions explain it the opposite way, do you even know what you feel? -AXM

There are so many things you miss while lost in thoughts, tensions and plannings. The human mind is constantly cooking up something, even if you are not thinking about anything it is constantly firing neurons and working its way through to the next task. In such instances there’s this outer stimulus that helps you snap out of it, maybe a person, thing or situations. Today such an incident occurred , busy in the cluster of thoughts, while travelling. A man broke that flow of chaos in my head. On one of the stations a man walks in, (black), bold, tall and wearing a black leather trench coat. He entered and sat right infront of me, the next moment I was thought to myself, what will I choose? The blue pill that makes me forget everything? Or the red pill that sets me free, incase if he offers.