Just thoughts!!

 this is a point of view that needs to be told and heard. It's about a very sensitive topic that holds a lot of weight if you understand the words correctly otherwise it is just a few words and sentences which don't even make sense, just another bullshit blab, 'last few months have been totally depressing, the feeling of unwanted and unloved, even hated. In reality or superficially doesn't matter, makes you feel shit. Life just went on for no reason at all. With nothing, just a blank future to be more depressed about. Everything you see, breathe taste and smell just feels like the edge that tempts you to jump to loose hope (not suicidal). Just the questions of the past more than the future troubles. decisions questioned, moved regretted, just take you in another dimension of reality. Then suddenly, one day. You wake up and, there is this wave of happiness. Just for one day, you smile. Those same feelings just change and you look yourself in the mirror and feel good abou...

 This is to someone who I know is suffering a great deal of emotional distress,  I understand that there are things going on in your mind that take you to a very dark place, a place so scary that it looks normal at times.  The mind plays tricks on you, making it feel easy building up tolerance to that distress, finding more ways to keep itself entertained. The absence of the voice that would not bother to tell you what you did wrong or what you should do, but listen to the words and fill your mind with their silence. For once not complain and be strong for you instead of treating you like a stranger who you never spoke to. To stand by the true meaning of being there, making the words more authentic then just saying it in a text! There are problems but I can’t tell you if it’s going to be okay, things will be fine, they will resolve soon, you’ll find peace etc. I would not tell you that you are strong or weak or just need to clear your mind. I cannot do that because I don’...

I saw you walking alone, through that dusty pathway, I was hell-bent on getting you through it that you failed to acknowledge. You thought you did it on your own, yes that you did, but I supported you to live another day for that day to come. You did it, finally, you are on the other side might have not found happiness but still with a sane mind, then you forgot to look back. It was overlooked, till the day came when the roles changed. The switch, which had its hidden agenda the world sank like a sinkhole to quick and sudden. To such an extent that existence was wiped off from the face of the earth. did you care, No! because you were busy celebrating the victory which I was a part of. How could you forget? How could you? It might be too late now the ships sunk to an irretrievable level it's stuck in a pit that is inaccessible. And still, you think it's not you? still, have that false perception of self? I asked for help, then I just gave up, because the one you care about was l...

 There are those, who even after explaining for the 100th time wouldn't understand the need to think before conversing in a sensitive situation. Normally you can escape from things said or acted. But then in a sensitive situation, things like that leave a mark. A mark which can cost you a lot of things. For example: Being alone, There is a difference between telling someone about being alone who has never been in that situation and the one who has always been in that situation of being alone. There is a huge difference in perception of the two situation Telling someone who has no experience of being alone is advice,  Talking to someone who is always alone, to be alone is like stupidy when the person wants company. It is a very easy thing to think, just breathe for once and think, or just don't say it. You might end up saving someone's life, if not with words then silence, rather than messing someone's life with something really stupid and unintentional. A person has a l...

"yes, she is my friend," he said softly, looking straight at the darkness of the night "but then she doesn't act like one" he added "why do you say that?" I asked him confused without any context to the situation He just smiled and said "she never acted as a friend"  "she kept that distance between us that made me feel empty" he added I could see that he was emotional at that moment "It was never about having something more in the situation when the primary parameters were skipped or never actually achieved" explaining the grounds of his stressors "was it just a facade?" I asked him trying to know and understand the situation better "No! it was real, as real as it gets" he explained in a very calm manner " but then it was also incomplete where the past just kept on repeating"     He was silent for a while after the sentence "It was the pure emotion of a friend, but she just failed to unde...