Just thoughts!!

In my normal everyday, I like to observe the people around me . At work, at home, while travelling, friends, colleagues, strangers. Each person has a different story, they want you to listen. Without using their words they can tell you a lot about themselves and when you add words to it, It enhances the impact. They aren’t always like extraordinary, sometimes it’s a ordinary persons simple story that is waiting to be heard. Such incident happened recently where I had to ask a question to a certain someone out of my curiosity. She deals with a lot of people face to face and virtually. At time the people she deals with are very uncomfortable.  Have you ever try to comfort an uncomfortable soul, Imagine accepting a reality that is challenging to you, And making it your own just understand the person who you are talking to better. Even though every instinct in your body tells you to run away, you still have to shut it off and sit opposite the person look at in the eye and feel empathy....

  It is one of those days where you feel like complaining. Complaining about everything that has gone wrong the whole year like things that have been bottled up inside, to let them go. Where you just soo irritated and feel like you want to bang your head on the wall. Just let the rage and frustration out. The frustration of all the unanswered questions, Requests, Help, Support, Needs, Attention. Everything that is gone wrong and was done wrong towards you. Just the pure disappointment towards life itself. No matter how much you speak and discuss about it, does not even scratch the surface of the situation. An absolute shit feeling. Today is one of those days  😉😂

Why are you so bothered by me and my existence? I am invisible to you and why don’t you just accept that? When if the wrong was done, the debt is paid by now , Then why do you still desire, the destiny that’s undesirable? Pushing all the unwanted attention, the hurdles and the challenges, For those who are unwilling to rise dragging me down? Not saving the souls that are meant to be saved, But saving those who are already saved. The hierarchy of your love is beyond my comprehension. The way you balance it between the faith and disgrace. Makes me question which gives you strength. Don’t look at me , but don’t ignore me either, Let me exist, don’t stress it either. The questions are always gonna be here, asked, answered,unanswered. Just don’t let the repercussions be brutally louder then your love

I know you are invisible to everyone, but don’t worry I notice you. I notice you everyday. I see you walk in silence, I notice you when you sad. When you try so hard to talk to me. Your beauty is soo bright that it makes you blind to most. They can’t hear you, not because of your voice, but your intelligence as they don’t understand. I like the way you converse , randomly tell me what you doing. I know you want to talk but you are nervous  You are a sunflower but you are Mimosa pudica too. Don’t worry, you don’t need words. Your silence will do Will just sit there, you don’t have to try. Your simplicity is what I look at, what makes me notice you. It shouts out loud to me everywhere you are