I wish someone Told you that.
I feel sorry for you not because of the pain and suffering you're going through, the stress, or the negative emotions overwhelming you. I’m truly sorry because you never had a chance. You never got to see or experience a healthy relationship. You never had the opportunity to feel genuine happiness. No one ever told you it was a choice. No one ever showed you that you can get attention through positive emotions and how much of an impact that can have on your life. Unfortunately, the only thing you were taught was how to use negative emotions to gain attention. You’ve been so deeply driven toward the wrong path , toward a messed-up ideology where sadness is seen as a prerequisite for happiness. You've only ever seen people mistreat themselves, without any self-respect. And now, it has confused you. That’s why, when someone is kind to you, it’s hard for you to understand or accept it. You panic. You resist it. Let me help you. If someone offers you their respect, just accept it...