Just thoughts!!

I wrote this entry, when I was in a really bad place at a very bad time in life, I thought I should share this, one of those script. Just to share the feeling of that moment, it’s just one of the entry from many, I feel like a fool Because of the intelligence I can’t share The words I can’t say  The incidences I am deprived of The experiences I can’t share The criticism I cannot publish  The charm I cannot inflict The anger I cannot embrace The friend I cannot have Things like these make men believe in a lie So hard the reality seems deluded  A wish to live, not to be cold, a feeling to be warm  Feels like just a dream. -Anif Xec 

I don’t want your sympathy,  I want you to be my friend. I don’t want to fake a situation for you to talk to me, I want you to be my friend. I don’t want to force you to be with me, I want you to be my friend. I don’t want to impose conditions on you, I want you to be my friend. I don’t want to ignore you to see if you text back, I want you to be my friend. I don’t want to feel alone when In company, I want you to be my friend. I don't want to be just heard for the sake of it, I want you to be my friend. I just want to be another person, I want you to be my friend. I don't want to force myself on you, I want you to be my friend. I want you to understand the true meaning of the word friend, then, I want you to be my friend. -Anif Xec

No! I don’t want to talk to you today just because your are sad, or just because I am mad. A friend is said to be no matter what situations are at hand, not just to ignore in happiness and reply when sad. There’s more to life then your strawberry cocoon of a imagination. You and the one, end of an evolution. There’s a world out there that you hurt, when you face the bell, you remember, oh yeah I have that friend, no matter if I ignored he/she is my friend it’s his duty to be there for my bad end, but as was yours when you had the upper hand, it’s not the friends duty, it’s a choice, it you think about it, you would have the exact response at you end.

Why is it important to you where I work? What my job is? Or what my pay is? It’s my personal life isn’t it? It’s my choice.    Oh yeah! You need that to know my personality? You didn’t even ask me how I am, you asked where I work? Why are you caught up in all such petty affairs. Does my work status is a way to evaluate yourself? You have your answers ready? Either it is going to be a    narcissistic comment or false praise. That is gonna be the only factor you would consider to judge my personality. It is the only option that makes me human? All my experience, hard work, personality,education doesn’t mean shit? Only my work does? How are you so obsessed on typecasting? Maybe you need to free your mind and grow, to know the better future,  Na! Bitching is difficult you see, I need to work hard on it to be a pro, enter into a competition, to fight for the rights of the idiocracies